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I am attempting, as best I can, to have a relaxing day…an ideal day for me.  I guess that is kind of funny, cause I am still trying to figure out what an ideal day is for me.  I am trying to debate if cleaning my bathroom on my birthday is an okay thing to do.  (Before you answer, you should see the bathroom…I might just be giving myself a birthday gift by cleaning that thing).

I am extremely introspective, so like most birthdays, I am taking time today to look back over the past year, and look towards the years to come.  This past year has been the hardest of my life.  The hard part of life isn’t over, but I think things are hitting a turning point.  God placed this year in my life for very intentional reasons, His pursuit of my heart is so intentional.  He has spent this year crucifying many things within me, and forming me to be the man He created me to be.  A few things stand out to me…

1) Because of my role in Cause and Affect, October 31st (and the 5-6 weeks leading up to it) will always be a high intensity marathon in my life.  God, in all His wisdom, knowing the pieces of my future, allowed me to be born in the middle of October.  This birthday in the middle of my crazy season will always force me to slow, rest and breathe.  He created me to be a driver, and He put a speed-bump in the middle of this season to make sure I know how to pace myself and enjoy the life around me.  My God is so intentional.

2) I think today is a meeting of 2 seasons in my life.  What was and what is to come.  It has been kind of known to me for the past few weeks that this would be the case.  I think for the next few weeks (or however long), I will be like Jacob.  There is much that I believe God has for me, and this is kind of a “grabbing onto Him and not letting Him go until He gives me my blessing” sort of thing.  If He does not go with me, I would rather not go.  There is no reason to stand out to the people around me if it is not because of your Spirit’s work in me.  So we are starting a wrestling match.  I already I know I will win, but it is only because He is going to let me win, but I don’t know how many rounds He will want to go.  What a loving Father.

3) If the best is yet to come (and I believe it is) then I cannot imagine how great it will be.  The years I have experienced so far have been so amazing, I cannot imagine what greater things will look like.